Apr 30, 2007
Siyal
Apr 15, 2007
Fix Me
Can’t you
see?
I’ve lost
your presence
And I’ve
lost my path too
This
belonging feeling
Just
evaporated
Out to
the nothingness
Sink
deeper and deeper
To
nowhere land
Without
any light
To guide
me home
But light
is futile
When you
don’t have
The place
you called home
Time
moves
But you
are still there
The ghost
in me
Don’t
fade
Lurking
In the depth
of my soul
And I
lost
Once
again
Apr 12, 2007
Rindu Hujan Rindu
Kekasih hujanku,
ini
Hingga rintiknya
menabur sendu
Berjarak malam dan meruang senja
Sampai basahnya merenggut resah
Berbatas angan dan menggoda mimpi
Hingga terasa begitu gigil
Deras basahi kering kalbu
Kuyupkan sukmaku
# Dan kita bisa bermain hujan bersama lagi
Over The Edge
I
am pushed over the edge.
Maybe
you do not realize it.
But
I do feel it.
Please,
could you be so kind to ask politely if you want something from me?
I
am not a superwoman or a head of this family.
But
I am trying so very hard to become one.
Just
try to understand me and don’t ask too much.
I
know I am the one who should take all the responsibility.
But…please
don’t push me too hard.
I
am trying….You know I am trying.
Or
for you I am not trying hard enough?
To
fulfilled all the needs and wants of this family?
Or
shall I work harder and harder than before?
Until
I turn to a working machine (or money machine)?
Yes…
I know that I am the one who should take the burden.
But
why no one care to share it with me?
Just
a little understanding and compassion will be enough.
I
won’t ask anything else.
know I should not complain.
But…just
do not pushed me over the edge
I
am tired….
Can’t
you see it?
-Need
a big and warm hug…ASAP-
Apr 9, 2007
Late Butterfly
Kupu
kupu itu kau
Kepak
sayap raba sisi hati
Terbang di antara kapiler darah
Jelajahi sel kelabu
Meledak bersama serotonin
Bombardir pori pori asaku
Tersirap matamu
Gilakan sadar
Akal terjungkal
Hingar mencandu
Desir sayapmu
Culik kantuk
Lupakan mimpi
Hingga insomnia mengunyah malam
Pagi pun datang terlambat
Sibuk merajut jarak
Dan rumit memeta waktu
kupu itu kau
Bercinta
dengan sunyi
Silam
yang mewujud
Tertuju
pada gamang
Sulaman
nasib berbalik arah
Terseret
pasrah oleh hasrat
Ingkari
keterlepasan
Jika
rindu tak tuntas
# Kupu kupu itu kau
Dan rinduku pun jelma kupu kupu
Apr 1, 2007
It was a beautiful nite
Malam terindah adalah
Ketika kita hitung rasi
Dan kau sangkutkan purnama di antaranya